Still Wondering

I have met some of the most amazing people in the world. People whom, I believe, will forever be a part of me. Some of the best friends I’ve ever had in my life, I’ve met within the past year.

Still, I have been wondering about the “why,”

Why have I been going to Haiti? I mean, I get the nurse/clinical thing. Maybe that’s all there is, but I just don’t believe that in my heart. There’s more to it that that. I can feel it. But I’m unsure about what, exactly, it is.

I have a feeling that it has something to do with the translators. Those guys are so special - so caring, smart, a few of them I have become really close to. John, specifically, but also Samuel D, Julmis, Sylvera (not a translator but I do see him every trip and I still love him like my own son), Titi (also not a translator, but a child that I worry about constantly). I’ve made some great friends with whom I’ve travelled with that I believe will become great friends with. I’ve always wanted a “tribe” of girlfriends, maybe this is it, I’m unsure, but the group of ladies that go are great.

But, I just can’t get over the thought that my purpose, my reason, my existence, has something to do with the guys. I’m still praying, still waiting, for God to reveal to me what this is all about.